Until you do what you believe in, you don’t know whether you believe it or not.

~ Leo Tolstoy



Throughout my life I have done what has been expected of me and I have done the unexpected.  It has usually been the unexpected that has been my greatest teacher. David Whyte in The Heart Aroused sums it up beautifully:


“ … if we can see the path ahead laid out for us, there is a good chance it is not our path: it is probably someone else’s we have substituted for our own. Our own path must be deciphered every step of the way.”



In the recently released, Dancing On The Head Of A Pin, I dissect the path I have taken and the lessons that were learned:



“In this inspiring memoir, Pamela McCreary recounts with refreshing honesty her life inside the secret society of Mormonism. Raped at nineteen, she is certain it is her punishment for disobedience, and so attempts to design a righteous, and thereby, safe life. Married at the age of twenty-one in the Mormon Temple in Washington D.C., McCreary embarks on a life of motherhood and homemaking. Hoping to find security and fulfillment, she turns her back on the over-riding passion of her life. In the process she loses herself, her religion, and the love she desires above all. McCreary's journey of reclamation, reconciliation, and faith is both poignant and funny. This is a story for anyone who has ever lost hope and heart, and needs to believe in the healing power of love.”